Ugh.
Been so long since I've really looked at dA I half-forgot how to make a new journal entry.

School is like whoa. Four college courses, hello. They say the high-school college courses are harder than college-college courses. None seem TOO bad except English, omfg. That is gonna be a hard class, oh man. Already warned my mum to prepare herself; I'mma try of course, but damn.
Half the class already dropped out.

Some pals say I was stupid to not take easy courses, but we'll talk about stupid decisions when they're bagging my college-groceries.

Rest of the classes are just work-ful. Lotsa work, every night. Gonna be busy. Argh. Tiring.

Been feeling kinda bitter deep inside lately.
I've been thinking about the future SO MUCH lately and what's going to happen between me and friends and my job and my life and ... ugh.
College is SO close.
I mean, really, I gotta get applications in soon. Well, I still got time because I'm not going to a "big" university like I orginally planned, but gotta apply to scholarships and stuff. Already did a nice essay and have been having people proofread it.

Going to UNF, Florida peeps. I looked at UF and FSU and UCF, but they don't have the degree I'm after, so huh. Well, UF does, and everyone says I could totally get in with grades and my SAT scores, but UNF's course is just as good IF NOT BETTER, and there's more perks staying close to home for me then moving away.

I am, however, going to get an apartment after the first or second year, because my classes will be too demanding.

I guess my bitterness is purely selfish desire, because things won't play out my way. So many people I wish I could go to school with in college, and/or keep in contact with, but for their own reasons, they're parting with me. -_-' Keeping contact with people when they don't go to your college is gonna be hard, and I'mma be a studio kid, so it's gonna be uber-hard to keep in contact with people outside of my school.
I've already pretty much lost contact with several people, simply on the account of it being hard for me to ... keep in touch. *can't think of better wording*

Ehh, it's a small world though, I guess. Life is still treating me well, just been busy. Thinking about too many things you don't have control of is depressing, so I TRY not to worry but... yeah.

Pure, unadulterated ignorance is really playing on my nerves these days.
Been too arrogant maybe, too.
In the blood though. ;3
Behold the bitch inside, fellas.

So yeah.
Have several doodles and stuff I'll post up when I get my printer/scanner reinstalled.
Had a computer meltdown recently, but that's a whole 'nother story I'm not gonna get into.

Mrawr. E-mails keep me entertained. Feel free. *nodnod*
ravenwolfen@comcast.net <-- (regular e-mail)
or uberkittylord@hotmail.com <-- ("male-side" e-mail)
or se_katz@hotmail.com <-- (work e-mail)

~FW